Serieel Beeld

The main difference in Serieel Beeld, compared to the first period, was – at least in my case – that this time I chose myself what I wanted to show, and not so much the teacher. I needed this in the first period, I learned a lot about what you can see over my personality in the photos I had taken, I was surprised about the interpretation of my teacher. With that knowledge about myself I started the second period, when we got 2 different cards at the beginning. The first one I got was a transit visa for a one way journey through the DDR, the second one had a picture on it that showed a baseball player in the New York Yankee Stadium, standing alone in the middle of the field. We should describe the motives and think about a story behind each card, then we should invent a connection between them and get a story or the essence out of them we finally had to work with and make three movies out of it, or better sketches of movies, between 1 and 2 minutes long. I decided not to tell a story, which would have been a bit boring for me just to re-tell something. I was interested in the connection between these two cards I got. What I was thinking about was this moment or temporary state you feel confronted with while you are alone and have to “fulfill” something, or something is gonna happen, and the end of this situation is not previsible for you. I’m talking about feelings like fear, stress, insecurity, panic. I tried to focus on these things in order to point them out without relating it to much with the cards I got at the beginning, I wanted to make something common out of it. My aim was especially to create these feelings inside the viewer while watching the movie, he/she should be able to re-feel. The result were three short bit surrealistic movies, the first was the base for the second one and both are more like art movies, the third is not totally different but I tried to get a bit more in another direction. There’s now not much more to say.

The most interesting point for me in this period was the way I dealt with the original material I got. I see something very personal in it, that I focused on the (negative) feeling and tried to point them out. I tried to show something people normally “oversee”, so it was sort of confrontating what I made, also for myself and the reactions of the people who see the movies. I think it is a bit myself what you can see in these movies. I have these feelings very easily when I have to pass such a moment, and I already did a lot of times. So it was also a way to show a side of myself I normally try to hide because I don’t know how people react. People normally expect a life-secure and self-confident person when they meet you, who knows where it’s going to and what life is about. I tried to point out the weak point everybody has and not to hide it. It was interesting for me than to see how people reacted and to hear the comments. This is good feedback for me, it fits into something general I start to see and you can read in the Beeld & Concept part or in the conclusion part.