Beeld & Concept / conclusion

This subject was the most important factor for me to get closer to a personal point. I think when you do art, it's important what kind of art you want to do. Do you want to produce pictures to sell and live from them, or do you want to see it as a way of phylosophic manifestation? It took me a while to let my stuck, old images go what art (and life) has to be. During the first and the beginning of the second period I analysed a lot, and finally came to the conclusion that every clear picture of an artistic future is not much more than a comparison with the past, with things you already know, good and bad ones, and you build your whole working process around that „knowledge“. You think you know yourself, but everything you know is yourself in situations you already know. Maybe it's human that many of us (me included) are scared to find out something really new, unknown, something you don't have any idea how to deal with it or which seems just „senseless“. But if you want to come out of that big illusion you have to start to see the very actual things and react to them. If you don't see the need to follow fixed rules given by society or whatever, but create your own imagine of the world and the things around you, you have to uncover the things people normally try to avoid: fears, emptyness, chaos, and so on. This is very irritating, for people and for yourself. But you learn a lot from it. You learn to create your view on the things new in every moment. Finally, there are a lot of things in this life. Things you see, and things you don't see. Also imagination, feelings, crazyness, are something that IS HERE, even if people don't want it and build their world around that illusion. But there's no fixed rule to tell you how the things HAVE to be seen, so if you don't want other people to know better what's good for you, you have to find out yourself how to see the things and deal with them, and why. Also, nothing stays. Everything is temporary and therefore insecure. So you have to find a personal way how to manage all this everytime for new. Only a few things stay, practically seen. These things are concepts. The concept of speech, for example. Therefore, communication is a big word for all that i've written above. You have to communicate with the world to make your personal view. Communications with art, in your way. If you communicate in a language the world already knows, you will get answers you already know. You have to find out a very personal way to communicate, something the world doesn't know yet, something new, something irritating. Then you will discover all the things everybody normally tries to hide. There is absolutely no prooof that the world is right, so you don't have another option than to make your own truth. At least if you want to be your own master, and not a slave of others. All this is very difficult to get into senseful words, and maybe I completely failed :) But anyway, I'm on a way now, and I think this way is right, leads me to somewhere. I'm getting closer to something. I'll see what happens.